Me Sick, You Well (I hope)

I absolutley hate being sick... it drains not only all of my energy but all of my thoughts. I lose time. I don't remember what day it is and feel like a complete bum when I try to make it to the livingroom to be around the family.
Hubby has been so good about taking care of me. Bringing me this and that... making sure I take these meds, making sure I eat. He's even blow dried my hair after I showered (I usually let it air dry but with a fever of 102, he didn't like that idea.) I've slept until noon or later every day this week and believe me when I tell you I never do that. He told me this morning that he came to check on me several times cause he couldn't believe that I was sleeping so late.
My soon to be boss called today. I hadn't talked with him yet, I had had designs on speaking with him earlier in the week but with the sick and the sleeping well.. you get the idea. I'm supposed to go solo as of 03-01, so I'm hoping that I'll be better by Saturday. I really don't want to put off starting any further.

See if you like it.. day two

I'm back this morning early, after another day of "see if you like it" watched the sunrise, which it looks like I'll be doing alot of with this type of schedule. Logged on and looked out to see snow falling. mental note.. put an extra sweater in the car... or maybe a small blanket. Trying to make myself stay awake because during the week I'll be getting everyone ready for school and what not rather than taking a nap when I get home... don't want to get a routine started that I won't be able to follow through with.
tomorrow I'll meet for my first day of "training" and hopefully go sign some papers later in the day to make it official.

See if you like it..

My sleep pattern is forcibly changing because of my second job. I'm going to bed now at 8pm, which is much different than the 1 to 2am that I was used to. I've always gotten sleepy at around 7pm though. (Once when I was out with "The Guy" I yawned and he jokingly said "ok, if you're gonna do that I'll just take ya home. didn't stop me yawning though... haha)
So, I just got back from my first of two nights "to see if I like it" (the 2nd job) and I do. So, next week I'll train for 5 days then go solo.
Hopefully it'll add the extra umph that we need here at home. I don't want to do anything drastic but you know how sometimes you just feel something... well I feel something drastic. Times are making me want to turn everything off. Cancel the tv, the house phone (which we have for ex to call punk), anything and everything I can get my hands on... I don't know but when I feel strapped for cash I look around and just feel like everything is spending money.
I called my chiropractor after my third visit... I know I need it but I can't afford $300 a month to see her and then wait on my insurance to reimburse me! My health will just have to wait. She says if I keep doing the Morter March that she taught me and saying my positive statements it should help until I can get back to her...
Oh, and Hubby says when he picks a new job (his jobs are reassigned every April and October months whether someone demands a trade or not) if he can't get the hours we're used to that he will get a 2nd job with me. Which will be nice, because with the cut in hours that he took it was like loosing nearly two full checks a month.
I know that people are worse off than we are. I just hate that we've gotten ourselves in this predicament - but that's what happens when you think you're job will always be there, I guess.

A Second Job...

I'm confused, but I know we need this. So, it I'm getting a second job. Going to sleep now, I'll tell you more as I know more.

Good night, Irene!

Needle Art...

ladies and gents.. check this link out.. . I'd love it if you'd come back and tell me what you think

http://www.guzer.com/videos/needle-art.php

Chiropractor...

I have been having horrible neck and back pain... for well over a month. Nothing made it any better and it seemed to be getting worse. I've been thinking about going to a chiropractor and one day last week a friend of mine showed up at my desk telling me about the chiropractor she's seeing. Well, colour me referred!
I called, they apparently thought my cry for help warranted an immediate appointment. I went in yesterday for the paperwork, etc. She also did x-rays and offered insight into what may be ailing me.. A few things that she mentioned was that I was delivered by forceps. I know it sounds... well WAY out there... but she said that being forcefully pulled from the nice warm cave that I had grown comfortably in also pulled apart well stuff that I needed. Anyway... I'm not having the best time personally right now.. so... I had a total melt down. I felt like all at once I'd just been told from the very beginning of my life I had had no control over anything, people taking liberties they felt were right. Natural delivery or let's pull all her little connectors apart and screw her up from the start? Breast or Bottle? Will dad continue to smoke in my presence or "It ain't hurtin' me"? - Then she started talking about the studies that had been done and that were linking forceps delivered babies to ADD/ADHD. and all over again... with the breakdown... now I've done the same thing to my son that was done to me out of pure ignorance.. and I'm no better than my mother and blaming myself that I should've known better (at 20), geesh... Then telling me how I need to learn to be more positive and begin a forgiveness process. That after 33 years of packing all these emotions down, of being negative, of being well being how I was raised - that now... I have to retrain myself. (yes, I've known this for sometime. but to hear it from someone outside my head is a little startling)
I went in today to read the xrays and for my first adjustment. It was very different from the last time I went to a chiropractor. The last time... he shocked me some.. then lay me and crack me. Once I thought he started from across the room, took a run and landed on my back. Oh, but yes... it felt much better.
Today, after we read the xrays she explained what she would be doing today for my first adjustment. My version is... There was no cracking... there was no sounds of me being a landing pad.. what there was instead...was pressure points.
Now remember that I went in complaining of back and neck pain. Well, she started with the pressure points on the side of my knees?? anyway... I had no idea that there was pain there... but, Holy Crap! there was! And lots of it! because the pain didn't dissipate while she worked on me, She said she would continue to work on that area. She also gave me words, numbers and thoughts to focus on. I go back on Thursday and I'll leave you with today's words.. pleasurable and enjoyment

Unconscious Mutterings #315

Week 315

Cups :: Glasses
Brilliant :: Light
Disobey :: son
Abstain :: sex
Daily :: work
You make me :: tired
Hurl :: puke
Intensify :: glowing
Fuck! :: Dammit
Race :: Amazing

SOOC #15

The first picture was taken on a trail just off the Blue Ridge Parkway.

The second picture was taken on a very tiny patch of snow near Peaks of Otter.

Me... A Stalker! Who knew??

so, last week I joined FACEBOOK. yes, me. anyway. I've made a slight error in thinking that I would be able to get away with just sticking to my own little page... I have actually found myself stalking friends... that I'm too sick in the head to say anything too. "woo hoo, hey over here, hiding in the corner... yes it's me." -drawing circles in the sand with my foot- "little 'ol me"
Stupid!